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What about things that aren't people?

[Back to this shit again... Rover's not sure why they care so much about what Mav thinks about them. It seems important. More important than what Rex thinks, what Ekkehardt thinks, what anyone thinks. They just want Mav to think highly of them, whether that means they're a person or not.

But...maybe he would be happier if they were a person.]

Yeah? Tell her to plan a movie night for us soon, then. I gotta see the good stuff.

[Ah. Oops. He hadn't been thinking about what words to use, or anything, and maybe it's because it's been a while now that Maverick feels extra bad about not choosing something else. It was still bothering them... Well, of course it was. It's very sensible to be bothered over not knowing whether you're a person and what can apply to you in life.

Maverick pushes himself back up to hover above them a moment before leaning in for a proper kiss and resting his body against theirs. No escape, they're pinned now, no matter how gently. Them's the rules.]

Dunno. You sure as hell don't follow any script, though. I like you doing your own thing, remember? [It's sort of why he came over today... To make sure they could keep doing that. Another kiss, and when he speaks again his voice is softer, but it also has a more teasing tone.] Unless you wanna say this was all a scheme and seducing me is step twelve in taking over Daybreak, then the world. Then I guess I'll have to rethink things.

[and wonder how he got himself into this situation again lmao]

[They brought the mood down...They're about to apologize for saying anything when Maverick traps them, and maybe it's not so bad.]

I follow several scripts, if you want to think about it literally, but they have given me the ability to demonstrate something close to "free will".

[That's a Joke, probably.]

And, no, step twelve is stopping Nightfall. This is step three. [A pause.] That's a joke.

[Just in case he didn't know!!]

[He rolls his eyes, though it's more to go through the act than actually feeling it.]

Yeah, yeah.

[Coding does have something to do with scripts, huh? He's never been super great at computer nonsense. Serious meaningful conversations... He's hit or miss with that, too. And being part of big schemes, jokes or not, well... Ugh. He's a fucking moron for even bringing it up.]

Step three, huh.

[Nothing would be gained from going with you.

He kisses them again, slipping one hand down their side and between their legs to finger along the slit, slow, like a test of whether it's okay. He wants to smirk and joke around some more, but trying to think of something to say is just making him dwell on the bad even more. Maybe something about how highly he ranked on the list? No, because then he could still be a mistake that doesn't get repeated, or something to check off and move on from...

You won't lose me. I promise.]

Can I be steps four, six, nine, ten, eleven, and thirteen, too? I can be as many steps as I want in a joke, right?

Yeah, step three.

[They lean against the kiss, surprised to feel the hand between their legs. They shift, pressing into the touch. Their sensors had been shut off, there, but it doesn't take more than a thought to switch them back on again. They want to feel this.

They just want to feel him.]

You're all the steps. You're even a big part of step twelve. What's the point of doing anything without you?

[And it's sincere, because Rover doesn't know how to not be sincere when it comes to Maverick. They just want him to be happy and to know they want him.]

[He hesitates a moment, then focuses on dipping two fingers in and moving them at a leisurely pace. It's easier to think about what makes their anatomy off and how he can compensate than it is to feel the weight of that last question. He doesn't know if it makes him happy to hear that or concerned, or what he should feel hearing something like that -- something that nags at the desire to make Rover feel more. He can touch them as he likes, but he doesn't know how to actually make them feel, and ascribing that to not being able to tease their clit or suck them off made it a little less like it was anyone's fault, or he's failing. They think they're happy, after all, doing things for him, whether or not he should be anyone's reason to fight, laugh, love. Live.

And they've said before they can feel this, that it felt good even through the unfamiliarity. Maverick will happily lean into what little experience he has while avoiding responsibility, and pepper them with affectionate kisses all the while.]

[Rover is content to let it happen, closing their eyes to focus on the sensation - because that's all it is, really. Sensation they're choosing to view as pleasurable, and they wonder if that's what it's like for someone who's actually organic. Can you choose what feels good and what feels bad? Probably not. It's probably just one more sign that Rover isn't a person, that Rover has no claim to being a person and shouldn't even try to pretend.

They sigh, softly.]

You're trying to distract me.

[His response is a sigh of his own against their neck, but he doesn't stop the gentle thrust of his fingers right away, like maybe just a few seconds more and Rover won't have called him out, or it will actually work. No such luck, of course.

Oh well. It wasn't particularly fair, anyway, even if he thinks it probably would have worked on him, were their roles reversed. That should concern him. Thoughts for later.]

Sorry. [And another kiss to their neck in apology as he finally slips his fingers out, though he still traces the lip of the slit while he thinks. It gives him something to do.] I just... I dunno what the fuck I'm supposed to say. It's not like I fucking get it when you talk about not being a person, or any of that. Not really... I don't --

[Ugh. He sighs again, and his already muffled voice becomes ever moreso.]

I don't wanna say something stupid and make you feel bad.

Well...

[Hmm. They don't really have any answers for him. They really don't know what to do or say in this - and it's not like they have any experience to draw from. All they have are their thoughts, and right now when they're not sure how good they are...]

I don't think there's any such thing as what you're supposed to say. There's just what you think, what you feel, and that's...That's worth sharing if you want to, I think.

[A pause, as they try to sort things into something that makes sense.]

I'd rather you say what you mean, even if you think it might be stupid. And...and if it would make you feel better, I can not talk about the person stuff?

What? No, that's not what... [Maverick's words trail off into a groan and he rolls to fall on his back and stare up at the ceiling, instead. That was a little better. Less distracting. He didn't want to smooch the ceiling.]

"Just what you think, what you feel, and that's worth sharing if you want". It's like that for me, too. I want...you to be you. I wanna fucking know who that is, and... I dunno. I wanna fucking make you happy. [So sex was safer than unfamiliar conversation territory, oops.]

[He doesn't get to stare at the ceiling for long, because Rover props themself up on their elbow to look down at him, effectively blocking his few.]

Okay. But...you don't have to like...Plan any grand schemes or do things completely perfectly to make me happy. You've made me happy already just being yourself, so...

[They shake their head.]

You don't need to try so hard or be scared of fucking up. I'm pretty easy.

[aaaaaaa no, his safe ceiling view -- ]

Pfh. I wouldn't fucking say that again, you know. [True or not... He doesn't really want other people going around thinking "wow Rover's easy," like he'll fight for their honor and all, but in an ideal world he doesn't have to because people won't be trying to get with his partner.

Less amused, though,] I don't want to fuck up. Even if you fucking say it's okay, it's just -- not?

[get rekt.]

Yeah? Noted.

[They'll probably only say it to Maverick, in that case, where it's completely harmless.]

Isn't fucking up a part of being human? And you're allowed to be human. You're not going to, like, break me or anything like that by not being perfect.

[ughughghhh he's just

gonna blindly feel around for a sheet or pillow or shirt or something to drape over his face because he can't handle this... Being allowed to be imperfect means being safe, and as content and happy as Rover makes him, he isn't quite...there yet. Even admitting as much as he had was pushing the limits of his comfort.

Huff. Stupid logical jerkbot.]

You can only say shit like that so easily because you're fucking perfect.

[Rover lets him grope around for a shield, watching him for a quiet moment.]

...I don't think I'm perfect. If I was perfect, I'd have less doubts on what I am, wouldn't I?

[They scooch closer, leaning against Maverick, effectively repaying the favor of trapping him.]

[He stills, finally, but even if he’s accepted his fate under them, he can’t seem to bring his gaze up to meet Rover’s yet. Wow, what a wall that is. Great. Sturdy as fuck.]

God, fuck no. [Maverick sighs, but he can’t really stop there, after such an adamant refusal.] I’ve seen a version of you without doubts and it fucking sucked. You’re — I wanna help you figure shit out if I can, but I like the you that you are now.

You are what I don’t want to lose, one way or another... So I don’t wanna fuck up. I dunno what’s...finally gonna do it, you know? Make you wanna stop...this.

[It started so suddenly, and with hardly anything known about one another. It didn’t seem so crazy that Rover would wise up soon, or get bored, or just...move on.]

[That gets Rover to go quiet and contemplative, looking down at him. They'd ask where they saw this version of themself, but - the mirror. It had to have been in the mirror, as weird and fucked up as it was.

They don't know what to say to make Maverick less worried - if it's even possible to have the words for that. So instead, they lean down to press a kiss to Maverick's shoulder, shaking their head.]

I don't know what would do it either, if it ever happens. But you don't know that it will, so just...try not to think too much about it? I like you. I'm not going to just stop liking you unless something drastic happens.

[And...if that happens, there's always the option to fix it. To overwrite whatever change happened and get Rover back to who they were before. But maybe they shouldn't say that right now.]

[There's no absolute there, no promise, but the allowance made is what gets Maverick to relax a little more, curling his arms around Rover and pulling them to him as he sighs out slow.]

Yeah.

[He feels so dumb, like a preteen girl with her first crush, having his heart thrum so intensely at just a I like you. As if they haven't said anything much more explicit that would get his blood pumping...but the little, straightforward assurances are nice. Rover likes him. He likes Rover. A whole fucking lot. He rests his cheek against the top of their head as he holds them and breathes for a while. Sure, he'll feel a lot better once the backup is in his hands, if they can really make that happen, but...for now, this is more than enough.

...]

I thinks it's, uh. Good. [ugh this sounds so stupid, but he really really wants to try, here] You calling me out and wanting to talk, instead of...letting me. [stuff]

I mean, I know this isn't just about sex, it's just ni -- hell. Never mind.

[They burrow into his side, resting their head against his chest. They can pick up on his heartbeat, and it's soothing. Grounding. It makes them feel just that little bit closer to him, and they enjoy it.]

Yeah? Of course I'm going to call you out. [They'll call you out all day every day if that's what it takes.] I care about you, not the things you do to me.

[What a dummy.]

Also we're supposed to be able to talk about shit, you know? I learned that.

[Ugh, he doesn't know if it comes across in his heartbeat at all, but fuck that makes it feel like it's going to explode. In a super good way. A floating away on a cloud made of happiness and dreams way. This is...too good, and if he thinks too much more on the wonder of that, he's going to tear up or something disgustingly embarrassing, so no more of that.]

Right. From the human things.

[They pinch his side.]

Yes, from the human things. Some of them really highlight what you should and shouldn't do!

[He protests with a noise of displeasure, but it dissolves quickly into a laugh. It's just...ridiculous.]

Dunno if I look forward to finding out everything you've learned, but in this instance? Fine, the damn romcoms win.

I learned a few things...

[They run their hand down Maverick's side, stopping at his hip.]

Who knows if you'll ever figure out all of them.

[oh]

Oh?

[His tone suggests he's receptive to learning despite what he'd said. Pretty hard not to be curious, with this dumb robot doing and saying things...]

Yeah.

[They squeeze his hip, before shifting and propping themself up above Maverick. They grin down at him lazily, before ducking down to press a kiss to a collarbone.]

Now, I don't know how accurate it all is and how much is...exaggerated, but...

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